He promised.

"I promise to marry you after 10 years" Is something I cant let go.. :(
Please Pam. You are hurting yourself. You have to let go.

Hay if only I could bring back the past where in we are happily loving each other... I would. But this is life. People will step into your life and leave you good and bad memories...

I cant think. I cant.

I have to sleep.

Family

A happy family? No. I dont have that. Since I was in gr 5, I dont know what it feels like to have a happy family. My Dad and my Mom are separated but they are sometimes in good terms thats why they were still together.  My mom loves my dad so much, she would do everything just to have my dad back but my dad is so stupid. He still have time for other girls. and yes, in front of my mom. Hayy I dont know what to feel. I feel the pain of my mom. A while ago, mom texted us (lola) that she got bruises from my dad. Yes. My dad always do that. mom and dad are working abroad, thats why they live in one house and yes im afraid. Really afraid. I just have to be strong. i just have to for my mom. Today is september 3 2013, september is the month of my birthday. My 18th birthday... I dont know.. I really dont know.. You know how it feels to be a lady for just one night, To wear a gown, to have your 18 roses.. gifts from your love ones, but you are just dreaming so you just ignore it. because you knew that it would never happen. And it sucks because you have nothing to do but to smile. Maybe God challenging us. To know how far our faith is to Him. Hayahay.... I need someone to talk to. If someones reading this, text me!! :( 09151590587 :(

Friends.

Looking back to these pictures makes me realize that I am so lucky and blessed to have these people who gave so much to remember. They are my REAL FRIENDS, my REAL brothers and sisters. Hihi The first picture where the picture with my VOLTA family, the second was my Journ family and third, Yes one of the boys.. My Volta boys :) 

From the past previous week, my life has been so tough since I have a lot of things to do and to think of. But I thank God because despite of busy schedules I have, He still let me to unwind and hang out with them. Yeah, I cant live without my friends because I can live without a boyfriend hahahaha!  

Dearest Friends

I just love these people!! :*

Okay. First of all, Im sorry for not updating my blog but yeah, this past few weeks has been my hell weeks. I got busy with my school stuffs. I just hate mondays that I have to attend my class 7am to 1pm straight!! Computer, Intro to mass media and constitution. Then I have to wait for 3hrs for my philo class 4pm to 5:30. I love how productive I am. :) Last year, I admit that I am so lazy wherein when I got home from school I would rather prefer to sleep than to do my homeworks. But now, I love even consti that I understand every single word prof's discussing :) Im not good in grammars so I apologize. 

Loveyou! :) 

Hey. Sorry for not updating my blog but I was kind of busy with my school works, tons of home works this weekends thats why I wasnt able to post anything. But I will update you guys as soon as I got my free time!

Loveyou!

Hayy my mind says go to ece but my heart says just stay to journ.
Huuu, help me to decide what course I will take, if I should continue my course today that I hate it because I think I have no future for being a journalist. Its really hard to write seriously but if we speak of standards of school hay I know I have it but its not worthy. Teachers are kind of lazy zzz they usually depend on Eclass. I just want a prof that would lecture us, who hates using powerpoints because they love writing on the board!!! TT

I was waiting at my next class in FILI, saw a guy with his wheelchair. I was starring at him as he was having his hard time passing at the corridor and I was guessing if he is about to pee. Then after a min, I saw him struggling on his wheelchair and yes, I helped him to the restroom. I dont care if he is a guy and he's about to pee because I saw him pushing harder on his wheelchair. And after that, I just realize that... Im so blessed to have a perfect body that I can walk, I can dance, I can do whatever I want and it sucks that they have to suffer and sacrifice a lot just to go to school everyday. Then it really breaks my heart when my fili class was over, I saw him waiting I think on his parents to fetch him and he was alone. </3
Hayy if only I could do anything about it, If only..

You.

Okay. Im acting weird tonight. Im in love :( And this is what I hate! Being in love is being in pain.
Hmm you came to my life unexpectedly, you gave me the sweetest words I never thought I would hear again. I've been broke before, but then here's you. Saves me from the darkest side of pain. Same as me, you've been also in a relationship that the ending was a crap. Full of tears. And here we are, starting all over again. I hate to say this but thank you for stepping to my world. I almost forgot my past. You thought me how to love again because I forgot how. I wasnt able to learn how to trust again but then you're here, letting me trust you. But, how deep is your love? Hmm. Its too complicated that the thing is, I almost cant figure out who is me for you. Sometimes we acted like were a couple, tomorrow would be different and tomorrow will be okay again. Thats weird.
The first time you hold my hand? That day was memorable. All of a sudden, I felt the heartbeat of my heart that is running so fast. I cant even resist. Every night I am smiling especially when my day ends up being with you even though its just for once in a while.

Being with you breaks me apart. Seeing you pretending to be happy? I know its still her. No matter what I do, a part of her wont let you to let go. And definitely, my heart aches a little. Just a little. I know my limitations, but.. If you love me tell me. If not please gently let me go. Because its too hard to estimate you. I dont know whats on your mind and Im not good in predicting your mind.


..and I think, the more I avoid you the more I fall deeper and deeper. And thats the saddest thing of falling. You just dont know whether he'll catch you or not. Because everything that falls, gets broken.

COMMENT.

Im confused. Is there anyone really reads my blogs? PLEASE COMMENT :(

Thoughts

Today is monday. I saw him. He's waiting on the side near the gate 1 of DLSUD. I was shocked because he was there, but then.. I refuse to say hello. I walk faster as I can, He's starring at me.

      My day is quite tough since I haven't had enough of sleep, plus I was at school from 6:30 am to 6 pm. But my day ends up with some meditation that my philosophy class' prof thought to us. I will share a little romance that made my day! There's this girl at my philosophy class wherein she's sick, I mean she's on her wheelchair with a braces on her body. And her mother was there to help her and also her father. I was surprise when she got on her chair, a guy approaches her. Me and my friend decided to sit on the front of them so as the time passed by, I heard the guy asking for the facebook acc of this girl. And I was like, Omg this is so sweet! :"> Knowing that that girl was on her wheelchair, suffering for many years and I got to see that girl everyday with her mom helping her going upstairs. And today, I saw them, the two of them talking and they both look happy :"> Hihi, there's still a lot of guys who accepts a girl for who she is and what she is. And I bet, that was a blessing from God, especially to that Girl.. That even though she is like that, there is still a guy who will appreciate her and will love her for the rest of her life. And will take care of her.. :">

Bestfriends

Okay, This would be my nth times to write about you guys but I just wanted you to know that you guys are my inspiration why I take up Journalism. Yup! :D I remember when we were in highschool, I wasnt able to think what my course would be because I dont know what course I want. Then you guys suggested that I can take up Mass communication since im "talkative" hehehe, and because I love English more than math! Hahahaha! =)) Anyway,

from left to right, Shane, Gerisa, Ace, ME, Krizzia, Palma, Joseph, Sarah (gray shirt) Gian, Paolo (shades), Ivan, Ernesto, Goldie, Bryan.

I miss you so much guys! If only we can hang out everyday, but I know God has plans for us thats why we only saw each other once in a month or sometimes when there's an occasions like birthdays unlike when we were in highschool, everyday we got to see each other, laughs together and cry at the same time. This is the reason why you guys are brothers and sisters to me! Since kinder up to highschool? Oh well, we are ONE! :) I love you so much guys! Goodluck to our future! :)

Unpredictable Love

Its hard to say that Im getting over and Im used to it. A long time ago I fall in love with a boy who means so much to me. We had our great time together, and actually he's my favorite one. I guess this is the reason why they say that dont fall in love with a writer. First of all, they will write everything about you. How you guys met, when and where and yes! This is true. I have a private blog on tumblr that talks all about my ex. But yeah, since we are now over I havent write anything there yet. Okay, After several months finally I moved on in a way that I kept myself busy all the time (this is the reason why I get even more fatter) And through God's way, I met a guy. He's too different with my ex. He's not sweet but through actions? You'll surely get a blush.      All throughout my summer, hes my buddy! My text-mate and should I say we share random thoughts with each other. I never thought that this guy will affects my life so much. There's something in him that made my decision to say that I think He's the one. But then, Is he feels the same way too? Now, Thats the problem. I dont know what to say. Its just happen that things gets complicated. If only love doesnt exist.. but it does. I cant predict what my future brings in terms of Love. "Minsan nanga lang ulit umibig, masasaktan ka pa ulit"  

06/16/13

Hi, this is me a girl who talks a lot and dont know the idea of typing whatever comes in her mind knowing that she has a tumblr acc wh/ch she can also do this thing there.

June 16 2013, today is Fathers day. Its just an ordinary day for us because my Dad is in abroad and also my mom. Me, my brother and my grandma was left here. I would lie if I say that we are a complete happy family because that was a long time ago. I still greeted my Dad a fathers day message although I have some little anger on him.  My dad is sweet, though he doesnt know what life is. He is still not matured in a way that he keeps on hurting my mom by means of having a relationship with so many girls. I salute my mom for still smiling though inside she's really dying in pain and suffering through my dads bad attitude on her.
Maybe this is the reason why I never want to disappoint them. I may be not the best daughter, I sometimes did bad things but I promise I will study hard and make a better future. My words isn't enough but I will do my best as I can. Okay, Im too dramatic this way hahaha but well. This is me :)